After nearly 3 years…..I think

Aries and Highwind in progressI start posting and then life gets crazy – yet here I am, trying it again.  Yes, my attempts to date Jason Segel have fallen upon deaf ears, but that doesn’t mean the last month hasn’t been productive.  I’m on week 4 of p90x and feel better and look a little better (if I say so myself) and the last nine weeks of school will begin this week.  I’ve finished a print for my basketball team and walked into becoming an assistant on a girl’s softball team.  See – I haven’t just been watching Castle….all the time….hey, Nathan Fillion has been awesome since Firefly…don’t judge me!

Anyhoo – what brings me to the Easel this evening.  Well, aside from getting a second snow day, I have finally finished a painting a friend asked me to start nearly 3 years ago.

A little back story.  I love creating things for my friends, mainly little cartoons of them doing ridiculous things.  Nearly 3 years ago, a friend asked me to paint Aries and the Highwind from Final Fantasy 7.  Of course I said I would, but then I quickly just stopped working on it.  I just couldn’t get into the groove with it and I kinda need to be in a groove.  I was also working on my Graduate show for my Master’s Degree and was otherwise occupied.  Needless to say, the canvas was drawn upon and promptly put in the office.

Jp’s birthday is coming up so I thought I’d try to finish the painting that was – and I have….almost.  There are a few touch ups needed, a few things added, but I’m pretty happy with it.  This is what I enjoy: commissioned work.  Technically, I wasn’t commissioned in this case – but I like requests.  Soon I hope to show you the Stevie Ray Vaughn I’m working on for Ramin – but that’s for another day.

Almost there....

Now, why I am writing about a gift for my friend when I’m going to present it to him this weekend?  First, I don’t think he really reads my blog that often.  If he does, the work isn’t complete yet so there is still a bit of surprise.  More importantly, I wanted him to know that I didn’t forget about him or his request.  It’s been awhile, but it’s finally here.

It doesn’t hurt to be reminded that we aren’t forgotten.

Happy Birthday Jp!

Update: Finished Painting!  Like I said, I don’t think he reads this blog that often AND it looks a little different in person.

Final product...maybe?

 

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A Plan for a “New” Me at 31

I’m sure in the grand, wide, world I am not the only person who has wanted, at times, to be different from who they are.  It’s taken some 30 odd years, but I have come to realize that I can’t change who I am at the core of it all.   I like to believe that I’m better at controlling the aspects of my personality that aren’t the most pleasant: the unnecessary worry, the belief that holding all of it in is the best idea, the over thinking, you know, that kind of thing.  Overall, I don’t feel I’m a bad person.  I care about others, I feel guilt when I know I’m in the wrong, I do the best I can at work and if others call upon me, I’m honest…and hopefully I have other good qualities – I like to believe that anyways.  Now, I’m not perfect nor have I ever claimed to be.  What I don’t understand, and what I don’t have control over, is why I’m not wanted?

I'd rather draw myself as a robot. I don't know why. Maybe it's easier? Probably because I've only drawn myself well once - every other time....ehhhh?

Almost a year ago, I thought I’d be picking a wedding date and planning for a future that I thought I’d be a part of by now.  Well, I didn’t pick a wedding date and my future is something that, for the first time in a long time, I’m not even vaguely sure of.  Where I’ll be in my relationship in 4 months, what I’ll do be doing in 6 months – no idea.  I know where I’ll be, but I don’t know what that means for anything else.  No wonder I’m not feeling too great – but I’m trying not to be overwhelmed by it (one of those personality traits I’m better at controlling now).  I need a focus.  I need something that is for me, to help me feel better about myself, because right now, I’m not feeling too hot.  So, what can I do you ask?  Well, I can’t control how someone else feels, and I wouldn’t want to.  But I can control me – and I’m starting by controlling my body image.

Please don’t think that I’m running down a dark path here with my weight.  I feel pretty good about it – most of the time.  Prior to basketball season (I help coach our middle school boy’s team – 6th grade is my team in particular), I had joined Curves and was going to the university gym with my friend Jinny on a regular basis.  Ball season hit and WHAM! no time for anything, and what time I had went to school.  Now that it’s over, and with help from friends like Jinny and Michelle, I’m getting back on track to lose the weight I need to.  I’m roughly 40lbs heavier than I need to be for my height.  I don’t feel I eat too poorly, but I don’t too well either (sometimes).  Being alone most of the time, it is easier to just go grab something than to eat at home.  Not any more!  I eat at the house, I work out, and we’ll see how it goes from there.

How I see myself - until I see a picture of myself from behind, then watch out!

So, three days into my new plan for a new me, I feel better.  I’m still a bit overwhelmed by the course my life is taking, but who isn’t from time to time.  We can only do what we think, and sometimes more importantly feel, is right.  I’m trying that right now.  Besides the exercise, asking Jason Segel out  (which he has yet to respond to which I hold out the belief that it’s a “maybe”) and submitting an Avenger tshirt design at WeLoveFine (which, by the way, my design was picked for the contest! check out my process here) are also a part of me getting back out into the world and out of my own head.  Ramin’s Stevie Ray Vaughn painting is soon to follow….and a print for the basketball team….and cartoons of my 6th grade players.

Looks like I have some work to do doesn’t it.  Here I go, hello “new” me, nice to see you.  You remind me of old me.

Jason Segel, Will You Go Out With Me?

Sweet Dream

Hello.  My name is Staci and I am seeking a date with Jason Segel.

This may sound crazy, but in a globally connected society where one can just type out and ask anyone pretty much anything, I’m asking Jason Segel out on a date.  Coffee and conversation, dinner and a movie, or a night out about town – anything you would like to do.

I just think you seem like a nice guy, that we might have some things in common, and that we would have a good time together.

I’ll go ahead and address the whole “why should you go out with me over some gorgeous Hollywood starlet.”  First, we both share a love of the Muppets (I am more attached to Muppet Babies, but I love them in all their incarnations).  Second, based on your films and shows I feel we have a similar sense of humor – or you’re the most amazing actor ever and did excellent work with material you hated.  Third, I would love some advice on what type of scooter to buy from a scooter owner (I’m currently saving to buy a Buddy 170i and about a third of the way there!).

A little background on me, because while I have some vague notion of who you are – there is absolutely no reason for you to know anything about me.  I’m 30 years old and I teach Art at a middle school.  In addition to teaching Art, I help coach the boys’ basketball team with my friend DJ.  In my own time, which I don’t have much of at the moment, I draw, make prints, and paint.  My family and friends are extremely important to me and in general I feel I’m just a good woman trying to figure her life out.  I also enjoy Star Wars, Bruce Campbell, the Lego video games, the outdoors, and reading – to name a few of my favorite things.

I am also an honest person so you should know that I am currently in a relationship, but, long story short, it’s very complicated.  I’ve written about it on this blog, so feel free to check it out – or, and this would be easier, contact me and I’ll explain it all to you.  Still, so you don’t think this, my asking you out, is sneaky or lame I told him and he didn’t really seem to care.  He probably didn’t think I was serious: I was.

 

So……Jason Segel, will you go out on a date with me?

I’m asking you out, so all the burden of meeting up shouldn’t be on you, right?! Here’s what I can do in order to make this meeting happen.  I can fly to meet you anywhere because I live near both domestic and international airports.  I can drive in my fuel-efficient Hyundai as far as Texas in one night (I’ve done it before to see friends).  Should you decide that you want to visit Kentucky, I would be more than glad to pick you up at the airport and escort you around town.  Should you choose to visit Kentucky, I’d prefer if you came to Lexington, more so because I know my way around there better.  Louisville is alright, but I’m not as comfortable there – but, hey, that could be an adventure for both of us right?

You are extremely talented both as a writer and an actor and seem pretty interesting.  If nothing else, I think we would have a good time and Cthulhu knows (but doesn’t care) I could use a good time.  Also, while I wasn’t going to write this for the fear of seeming shallow, I’m just going to put this out there: you’re very attractive.

There it is Jason Segel – if nothing else, at least I tried.

Not the best picture, but hey, I'm working solo here.

 

It’s been a while…

Shirt I'm using for new artwork

Well, it’s been quite a while since I’ve sat down to write or do anything beyond go to school, teach, coach, come home, but I’m trying to get back on track.  Hopefully, if I can get my mind to where I want to be my life will get back to where I want it to be (I hope that makes sense to you reader…sometimes I believe I’m making perfect sense when really, I’m not).  But I’m getting off topic….

I really want to work with the idea of using t-shirts as a base for paintings that don’t reflect my family or friends, like most of my art does.  I’m starting off with a Darth Vader shirt with the words “The Empire Wants You” written in red across the front.  My goal is to use gesso to attach the shirt to a piece of plywood (instead of canvas) and then paint a scene around it based on the t-shirt used.  Now, this isn’t a one-off deal – I have many t-shirts that I can use for some pretty neat paintings.  Yes, I have a confession to make: I’m a t-shirt junkie.

I LOVE fun t-shirts.  Comic shirts, Star Wars shirts, Monty Python shirts, University of Kentucky shirts, movie shirts – I LOVE LOVE LOVE them.  I wear them under my “work” shirts (aka: button up).  Being an Art teacher, I get a little leeway.  It also doesn’t hurt that the most awesome principal ever, Mark Leet, is a Star Wars fan and doesn’t think my Boba Fett hoodie is a problem.  ANYWAYS….

I’m using the t-shirts that I know I need to clean out of my closet BUT can’t really give away.  I’m sorry to those of you who wait knowing I’ll eventually clean out my closet – I’M KEEPING THEM ALL!!!! hahahahahahaha!

This is ONE of my shirts

Sorry.  That wasn’t very mature.  I’m just excited about this new project – a new start on something.  Now, despite my depression about things beyond my control, I haven’t been completely out of the loop or trapped in my Dark Hole of Questioning My Future.”  Besides time with family, friends, and good, quality time with Doug, I’ve been coaching a 6th grade boys basketball team AND patiently waiting for The Muppets.

If you are not aware that there is a new Muppet movie out there in the world – THERE IS A NEW MUPPET MOVIEOUT NOW!!!

To be Amy Adams in this film....*sigh*

It is a blast!  Written by Jason Segel (who also stars as Gary) and Nicholas Stoller, the movie is, in brief, about a young Muppet Walter who, with his brother Gary and Gary’s girlfriend Mary, go to L.A., discover an evil plot to destroy the Muppet studios, and help round-up the original Muppet lineup to do a telethon to save the studios.  There are many cameos (Jack Black’s is awesome but Dave Grohl’s is my favorite) and the story is very self-aware.  I love the fact that while the film acknowledges that the Muppets are popular with an older generation (the now 30 year olds of while I’m included) and that television is not as wholesome as it once was, it shows that funny is funny.  The Muppets are FUNNY and this movie is well worth the watch for ANY generation.  It would probably be great for as many younger children to watch it as well.  Still, that’s only my opinion and while I’m not an expert….it’s the Muppets! (PS: Chris Cooper is AWESOME as the villain)

Thank you all for your patience and understanding with the lack of posting on my part.  I’m trying to swim out of my pool of self-pity and doing some art for myself and not for teaching or the hallways (Christmas decorations for the main hallway is KILLING ME!) is my life saver.  Still, I appreciate the support of my family, friends, and Doug.  No matter what, I know I’m loved and at the end of the day, that’s good enough for me – and more than I ever expect.

Now, GO WATCH THE MUPPETS and if you see Jason Segel out there somewhere in the world please tell him Staci Gilliam said “hi.”